The root of all this is very simple
There are many pieces/variables/factors that can go into building a big, fat, steaming pot of bipolar disorder.
But there is no need to overcomplicate its treatment by attacking absolutely every single damn piece with its related medication, as a response.
Let’s pick it apart – identify its key sectors and then we can sensibly dismantle them.
I think the general symptom set can be agreed upon by all camps:
- Depression symptoms
- Anxiety symptoms
- Mood swings
- and varying experiences with altered perceptions of reality
…seems to sum it up nicely.
But why this is and where one should go next is where all the conflict begins.
So please allow me to give you my answer to the question, “what is bipolar disorder?” This is based upon my own personal bipolar life (past-tense) and my having been a caretaker to bipolar people in two clinical settings for three years.
Bipolar Disorder is, at its simplest, a symptom in its own right
It is a warning bell that your entire life needs an overhaul. Every aspect of you as a person, needs to be inspected, considered, repaired (if possible), done away with (if need be) or added to (if a hole is found.)
This is a big concept to get your head around for many. Especially those who know nothing except to take pills and stay that course. I know. I was also this for six years.
This may also seem naively ignorant of me or overly simplistic. I must still be sick, some have told me. I am kidding myself. I am in remission. I am….whatever.
What I am is BIPOLAR FREE, going on 7+ years now and it didn’t start until I switched to my plan. But I digress.
Let’s just look at the Big Picture:
You are deficient in many things.
You are approaching life from the wrong angles.
You are giving time, energy and power to items
best removed from your day.
Those four things are what need looking at
Overwhelm is easy. More is coming at you than you can effectively process and act upon, in any sort of proactive fashion. A big overwhelm comes in the form of crowds. It’s connected to the lesser problem of social anxiety but can eventually bloom into raging bipolar if not dealt with as soon as possible.
I couldn’t tolerate crowds for years. They scared the shit out of me, pissed me off and made me long for the personal connection I saw everyone enjoying around me. This all made me dangerously mad, so I became a hermit.
You are deficient, mostly in nutrients that allow your bodymind to function properly. Yes. Bodymind. I wrote that on purpose. Your brain is not in a box outside of your body, contrary to how psychiatry treats it.
The brain needs the body to be OK and the body needs the mind to be OK for either to have a hope of survival. They are one.
It’s believing that, somehow, the ball of meat that makes up your northern aspect is not the continuation of your body above the neck. Own it. Then you can fix it.
Your heart thinks and talks to your brain
Mistreat your heart and the mind fails. This is fact.
Your heart even has neurons in it. Half its weight is neural cells. This was proven years ago in Scandinavia.
Sick in the body equals sick in the mind yet psychiatry treats the mind all by itself as if the obvious were not true.
You may be deficient spiritually, whatever that may mean to you. You may be deficient in other non-solid ways.
Matters of the heart, matters concerning beliefs, matters regarding a personal philosophy that seems to be failing you, etc. Deficiency covers a lot of ground but I cover the tactics to refill these voids.
It’s not a chemical imbalance
A large part of it can just be a sick heart, be it emotionally or physically. Yet even these two things are frequently combined.
It can be triggered.
You may walk around with the potential your entire life and be fine. Or you may suffer a loss so great, it gets kicked into gear. You may never have had it, had that loss never happened to you.
Your approach to life is taking you places the better part of you, your subconscious mind, knows to be wrong for your intended goals. Your true goals.
The goals you frequently are not conscious of except in your most quiet, most personally honest moments. The big things you desire more than any, which scare the crap out of you in their seemingly impossible acquisition.
You avoid the pursuit of these goals in your assumption that they’re unattainable
You do this simply by living wrong. Choosing poorly. It’s easier to do things the bad way. Doing things right when no one is forcing you to is the hard way but the only way to true happiness. Become aware of this and watch what happens.
To a very large part bipolar is a failure to take responsibility for your life.
That sounds cruel, especially if you’re currently struggling to just stay alive. I’ve been there too.
I am NOT saying “buck up and be a man/woman”.
Or some such nonsense. I am empowering you!
Knowing that a big piece of this is due to your level of responsibility means you have an adjustable angle to work. The illness is not unbeatable!
Worse than avoidance is the addition of problems caused by this wrongly-directed lifestyle you’ve chosen. In your attempt to stay comfortable, to not stretch, to not risk what’s worth risking, you strive to achieve in areas you should not be a part of.
Maybe you were right at one point but that point has passed. These activities no longer fit what your heart knows you need to be doing to become what you were meant to become.
It’s a heads-up from your heart to adjust your life’s heading. Evaluate your efforts. Justify their priority compared to what you know is important. Re-aim.
I’m not saying you need to tackle becoming President of the U.S., a great inventor or the next “big thing” in any area. Maybe it’s just to be a better dad, mom, sibling, friend, co-worker, son or daughter.
Maybe someone just needs you to be a better version of what you are now so that they may thrive. They need you to step up. This is a smaller scale goal but with vastly more impactful implications for your personal growth.
Stop doing what you shouldn’t and start doing what you know you should
To restate that sentence right above you: Not only are you not taking responsibility, you are racing away from it.
You are actively choosing to fail in some way, probably subconsciously, (if this part even pertains to you). Reexamine your day to day choices both large and small. See if you could do better.
This is not a personal attack and not all of these problems will apply to everyone reading this.
Also, these problems can be stronger in one area than others. It’s a hodgepodge kind of a thing.
What is bipolar disorder? It’s your biggest wakeup call. Ever.
As bad as it is, and it’s pretty damn bad for many of us, it is fixable. You were meant to do better. You need the healthiest body you can produce to do it.
You need the right set of goals to feel your most satisfied as you use this healthy vehicle to attain them. You need the right set of values so that you can stay the course when the seas get rough.
Some of this might sound ridiculous. It might sound too fluffy. I understand. I’ve been there too.
Are you kidding me? I am a Marine Gulf War vet, ex-alcoholic, ex-felon, who was once paid to fight for a living for over two years. I still can’t stand fluffy.
I’m telling you, you need to reexamine what your entire deal on this planet is all about. I did.
It’s why the title “ex” comes into play so much when describing myself
Much of the Old Kenny had to be put down. Let go. Retired.
This is also a confusing game of the snake chasing its tail. It’s the human form of the Gordian Knot. All of these areas feed the rest.
It can be very hard to tell which one is driving all of the others. Is it the Chicken or the Egg? Which chicken? Which egg? Bipolar brings many of both.
Are you a drunk with bipolar or a bipolar person who can’t stop drinking?
The answer is both. The fix is to address both simultaneously but in a way that allows you to comfortably whittle the problem down to size.
Bipolar disorder is a distasteful feast that you patiently nibble through, so that you may earn your dessert.
Same as any other elephant.