Seven21 Media Center in Kingston, NY.
Home of Ellenbogen Creative Media and my friends: Jeremy, Henry and Alice Ellenbogen.
(May you all be so fortunate as to have friends as these one day.)
This is where a big piece of my new life as a sane man began
I just wanted to reformat a DVD.
It was from one of my very first interviews, a talk with a local cable television show host.
I didn’t have the software to use what they gave me for marketing purposes.
Somebody suggested I see the Ellenbogens over at Seven21.
An entirely unique and fascinating world was opened up to me right from the first visit
I met Henry Ellenbogen, who immediately took great interest in me.
I also met the main mad demigod who was negotiating a rental space with Henry.
He too, saw something in me that he wanted to help me pursue and we fell into deep conversation on the spot.
The rest, as they say, is history.
I took part in more cool projects, was exposed to more behind the scenes universes that existed right here in town, and met more movers and shakers than I ever had in my life.
I was given the keys to the kingdom, in a way.
It was here that I was handed the chance to explore my own mind in ways no other opportunity ever could
- I learned a great deal about the disabled people’s support system from the admin side. I learned of freelance consulting system that serviced this population.
- I helped install art exhibits. I fed the homeless. I counseled ex-felons.
- I got free stuff from all over the place when I was struggling to pay my bills.
- I made the cover of our local paper for helping to build our city’s first rooftop garden.
- I was an event facilitator for multiple corporate and non-profit groups in our local area.
- I met famous artists, bands, and performers of all types.
- I acted in a commercial for a local hardware store (I’m hefting the power drill and later, walked it down the aisle) and helped film another.
- I got my wife a gig in another commercial. (She’s at the very beginning drinking coffee!)
- I even volunteered to gopher for the cash register you see in the beginning of my commercial. (Anything to help!)
- I learned a ton about video, audio, and live event production.
- Tools, equipment, material, personnel, and space were granted to me freely to try my hand at anything that popped into my mind.
- And more stuff than I can possibly remember!
I even held my own movie festival in the big recording studio, with help from a local movie producer!
John Bongiorno and I screened the delightfully dark, tongue in cheek “Night of the Living Jews” and “The Catskill Chainsaw Redemption“, both films he produced, as well as the strange Zach Galifianakis private viewing only “Visoneers“.
Since it was Halloween, we even had a guy dressed as Leatherface burst through the doors of the studio with a real chainsaw swinging wildly above his head!
But as far as business building went, nothing resulted from all of this to pay my bills.
May you eccentric, Davinci types following along, one day be so fortunate as to find your own Seven21 run by your town’s Ellenbogens!
If you get that chance, you’ll find a home for that mind of yours that can do what other’s cannot.
Key Points (This Episode Had Many!):
- Marine Corps training helped me devise the system to overcome bipolar the way I did
- I no longer walk people had in hand through the use of my system
- It Takes Guts To Live Well (ITGTLW) is an option of last resort for many, as it was for me
- Regain physical health and mental health will surely follow
- ITGTLW improves entire quality of life, by default. It’s possible you’ll surpass your original baseline of wellness
- Bipolar equals pervasive lack of hope
- You can instantaneously switch from awesome to total despair without warning
- Mixed Bipolar was without a doubt the picture of Hell on Earth
- I often felt my bipolar to be black electricity in my body and impossible to turn off
- Bipolar can be hereditary and it can be triggered
- You can also have the potential for it but never trigger it
- This interview contains my first mention of Being an Outsider in a public venue (Prophetic!)
- Once I understood bipolar, I realized I’d had some form of it my whole life
- There were over 80 other negative symptoms I experienced, beyond mood swings
- It has roots in trauma and my life was packed with many types
- Bad alcoholic: My family tree proved to me throughout my youth that alcohol was just part of normal life
- The overall effect of being in the Marines felt like prison – trapped, restricted, monitored
- It was also full of intense fun, the likes of which can’t be found anywhere else
- I offset my boredom by routinely creating chaos
- Came out of USMC big, tough, alcoholic, drug addict, physically fit anger machine
- Been in trouble with the law on multiple occasions (*eventually became a felon)
- To fight bipolar, all the docs did was pack me full of psychotropic meds
- My 2nd coma (first was in high school from alcohol) was caused by overdose of Lithium, taken in a fit of self destruction but not suicidal in intent
- Grew to hate “normal” people
- Final psychiatrist gave me a death sentence
- He also pitied me for being totally aware of just how fucked I was (I studied up on all he gave me and why. He wished I was ignorant just so I could die in peace)
- Felt sure I was gonna die in a psych lockdown ward, in prison, or on the streets
- Lived in a Purgatory, incredibly afraid of death but not wishing to live
- Life was pointless: I smoked, took meds, and tried not to hurt anyone – the end
- At this time is when the Marine in me returned and told me to fight! He was just a whisper but I heard him
- At time of this interview (2007) I’d already had 30 jobs
- To repair myself, I looked at my body as a mechanic looks at a machine, then troubleshot myself
- In the interview I mention TORQUE BACK. That was the parent of ITGTLW
- I speak on every step in the system in this interview but you get the in depth version by clicking the Green Field
- Early signs of success were improved physical tone, nicer attitude, and the feeling of all symptoms gradually weakening
- Anxiety and panic related issues were last symptoms to go but took years to do so
- Huge part of bipolar is a lack of fulfillment: life lived wrong
- I’ve always looked at life differently than most around me
- I’ve often been “too much” for people and still can be if I don’t stay aware of that fact. (Sometimes this is a problem and sometimes I don’t give a shit. Depends.)
- Don’t like holding a job, above and beyond most people’s hatred of employment
- Discovered I feel best when I’m helping others get ahead in life
- Learned to not carry guilt. It’s a key driver in bipolar and must be released
- The video interview of me and cannot be shown here due to my inability to convert the disc version to an online version. Sorry!
- Ellenbogen Creative Media My friend Jeremy’s company and where this interview took place
- Seven21 Media Center For media production equipment rental, video production, media transfer, office space rental, event space and more!
- Jeremy Ellenbogen: It pays to be authentic, transparent, and to operate with integrity
- It Takes Guts To Live Well: My free wellness system