Another “dead nuts center bullseye” result in describing a key aspect of how I operate and why.
There has always been a piece of me that can’t help but stand up for the underdog. For much of my life, I was an underdog too, and risked my own safety and sanity in taking this stance.
But I could never help myself. When I saw someone being hurt, whom I cared for or at least sympathized with, I’d get between them and the problem.
Prior to the past 5 years (this being March of 2018), this led to a lot of hard lessons.
Having completed my Human Design Report, I now see clearly why I’ve always been like this.
I like to see others shine. I love exposing helpful resources to then=m that they never knew existed, thereby giving them hope, focus and a plan for moving forward.
If I don’t have an answer, I have an exact, or at least strong idea of who else might.
This leads to how I view the handling of most problems: I don’t actually tend to do anything until I can clearly see the point of how it might benefit me.
This is to protect me from the rest of my strengths, which, when applied incorrectly, only lead to destruction and chaos for me and those closest to me, including the ones I’m trying to help!
Details age me. Or, more correctly, acting on/fulfilling the completion of the details is my Kryptonite. Once I’ve completed a plan, I both no longer have much interest in it nor the energy to keep feeding its individual pieces.
And throughout it all, I am highly sensitive. It’s easy for me to get my feelings hurt. And my response is often hard core aggression, in one fashion or another.
I can be just as brutal as I am kind.
I do my best to temper all I do so as not to allow that second thing to happen too much, but it sometimes still does.
Then, all I can do, is enhance my ability to remain aware and try to dampen it as it’s happening and to not linger within it when it hits.
Easier said than done. But all of Outsiders Journey is one way of how I make it happen.
