My Heart Center being undefined is an interesting take on my inner workings.
I was sort of deflated at first when I learned of this result. Seemed that life would be better with a defined Heart. Just has a nicer ring to it, doesn’t it?
Of course, that was a perspective shaped by ignorance. I had yet to learn what it actually meant within the context of Human Design. I was focusing too literally on the words.
So. All this undefined Heart Center means is, I have nothing to prove to anyone. I’m solid, as is.
Now. After reading that, I felt a lot better about things!
Turns out I have no need to get into a dick measuring contest with anyone over anything.
Once this info was revealed to me in this way, I was able to see how perfectly my life was already playing out to prove it.
I do feel cocky and a little superior in certain settings, and definitely at any time when the Marine Corps side of me comes into the discussion.
But even that is often downplayed by me. No easy feat. We Marines are insanely egotistical about our standing in any group.
Yet it bothered me slightly to even write that! Smacks slightly of the asshole-ish. And I’d just rather be perceived as not that, as much as possible.
I simply have no sense of competing with others unless it truly matters. Then I can become as rabid a fighter as anyone else.
But I carefully choose when, and if, to ever let that arrow fly.
I discovered a long time ago that it just wasn’t necessary to keep proving myself. And I also learned that when I forced any such issue into a combative stance, the process often left me feeling deflated, tired, and sometimes guilty, even if I’d won.
Interesting note: when I stopped trying to defend my position on any one topic, people became more interested in what my position might be.
And when anyone assumes they know where I stand, and I don’t agree with them, I still deftly avoid confrontation in the matter, sometimes causing them to look a little more closely at what it is they’re saying.
In another light, I can quietly dominate a person by letting them come to their own conclusions about where I stand in comparison to them. And they often place me higher than I would, or higher than is even realistic.
They psyche themselves out for me!
To be fair, that last setting is something that occurred more in my past, when I needed to be perceived a certain way, in order to stay safe or win important arguments. It rarely happens any more.
I won’t even take up a fight on principle if I don’t perceive a distinct or long lasting win for me, regardless of how strongly I feel about the topic.
It’s something I learned to avoid to protect my own peace of mind many years ago.
Does this mean I never get aggressive or stand up loudly for anything? Hell no! I do so but in a very selective manner.
And when that times comes, I am often a force to be reckoned with. And I will not back down for shit.
Final note: that last bit? I learned from Bill Harris at Centerpointe that there is no “right” or “wrong”. These are human constructs – abstracts that exist only in our minds.
It would seem those of us with this undefined Heart Center have that perspective hard wired into us already.
Table of Contents
– Type: Generator
– Authority: Emotional
– Profile: 4/6: Caring Advisor
– The Nine Centers
- Crown Center
- Mind Center
- Throat Center
- Self Center
- Heart Center
- Sacral Center
- Spleen Center
- Emotions Center
- Root Center
- The Organizer, Expressing Logic
- The Alchemist, Turning Base Metal Into Gold
- Cycles, Beginnings, Middles, and Ends
- Connecting-Creating Through Intimacy
- Power, Empowering Intuition