Human Design: Crown Center: Always Thinking

Because my Crown Center is undefined, I think too much.

OK. No big news flash here. Anyone who knows me can testify to the obviousness of this fact.

But it was actually a relief to discover this Chart result. It validated a concern I had that I’ve worked on resolving more heavily in the past 5 years.

I know a lot about a wide variety of issues. Maybe too much.

And I am compelled to find answers to my problems by constantly thinking about them. Combined with my awareness of all the ways I can possibly go solve these problems, I struggle to create a clear plan.

Yet when speaking to others, I can resolve my issues easily! (Eventually, this became true for those who needed my help too!)

The biggest example from my life that proved this to be true is from my early attempts at overcoming bipolar disorder.

I spent probably a couple solid years talking my Mom’s ears off, relaying all my concerns, asking questions she could never answer, and bouncing ideas off her that had nothing to do with anything related to her life, all in an effort to save my life from bipolar.

These talks became one of the biggest parts of what ended up saving my life.

But she’s always said she never knew what to say, most times, to help me.
And I’ve always said that the few things she was able to respond to, and her simple presence and ability to sit and take it all, was how I came to my own conclusions for moving forward.

I just needed the discussion to take place, no matter how one-sided.

I needed someone to listen to me. Because even with minor feedback, it enabled me to sort through my thoughts and arrive at proactive, sensible ways forward.

Left all to myself, I’d still be in her basement, thinking things through, medicated to the tits, and going steadily more insane.

Actually, I’d have been dead, long ago.

OK. That was just one facet to this Crown Center picture.

The rest has to do with “what” I’m thinking about and “why”.

If I understand what the Chart is telling me, and with respect to what I know about my life, it seems I find life to be a little flat and I’m always looking for ways to spice it up.

This causes me to look under stones best left unturned and to pursue ideas best left untouched.

It would seem that instead of looking so hard for a better life, I should help provide one to others.

And just because something presents itself as interesting to me doesn’t mean I should focus on it too hard or at all, thereby letting it consume me to no end.

Back to that “Underdog” saving issue of mine; I tend to take on other people’s problems and make them my own. I like to get inside other people’s minds and try to speak for them, live for them, when neither action is beneficial.

The Chart and my pre-Chart conclusions are that I should just be there for people and use my life as an example for those who need it to guide them toward their own solutions, rather than hand the answers to them.