Here I go again.
I thought I’d left behind the idea of actively sharing anything about my bipolar past.
I have always wanted my material to be available to those who need it most.
But my first run at doing so turned into a bitterly stressful dead end.
In response, I began Outsiders Journey.
I wanted to branch out into new areas, while still giving out all I’d learned to beat bipolar.
There were many powerful reasons for how and why this came about, all of them having to do with my incredibly humbling naivete in more areas than I’d care to admit.
I had learned so much. A vast amount of information and hard won experience.
But the Universe had only begun to shine light on the bigger lessons.
Life spanked me on me bum
I’d had a rip roaring bipolar help fest of a business underway for awhile. But it ultimately brought so much bullshit into my life that I had leave it all entirely.
People were reacting to my news in negative ways I never foresaw. I learned embarrassing amounts of info that made me see I was not as right as I thought I was in a few key areas.
I’d unknowingly placed myself at great legal risk. Concurrently, I learned that I would be viewed as a great legal risk to the institutions I wanted to speak at most.
And I wasn’t helping people anywhere near as well as I thought I would.
I got confused, frustrated and incensed. I was also at a complete loss as to what to do with my life.
I tried to “hide” inside Outsiders Journey
But in the course of developing this site, I began to see how avoiding the bipolar shit was just not gonna work.
Too much of a desire to help others with what I’d learned.
And I found myself speaking about it even more in person-to-person meets than I had since first walking away from it all.
Yet I still do not want the Bipolar World to come at me the way it once did
I mean this is a global/royal sense.
I fucking beat bipolar. And one of the ways I stay sane is to not let it become the focal point of my day in any way.
So I’m going to let this podcast do its thing. You guys respond as you see fit. We’ll see how I react to that.
Ultimately, I WILL figure a way to use this info in a way that helps us both.
But for now, just take what I have to offer and use it as you will. If it helps you, please tell others.
I made it out. Maybe you will too.
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- I found out what I didn’t know that I didn’t know in my first attempt to help people beat bipolar disorder the way I had.
- Regardless of where my heart lied, what my intentions were, there were real world aspects to sharing this info that weren’t known to me in the beginning.
- I learned the hard way that not all bipolar people are the same. (Far from it.) And I’d wrongly attempted to pigeon hole everyone into my mold.
- About most things I wasn’t wrong, per se. I was just handling these things wrong.
- Outsiders Journey, in part, is my way of righting those wrongs, while being helpful to you in a way that benefits me, instead of hurting me.
- The larger lesson to be had here is what Outsiders Journey represents: this is something a former bipolar patient has built and is actively growing. What might that mean to other bipolar people who have something important to say? Something they want to grow?
- It Takes Guts To Live Well: My free system
- It Takes Guts To Be Me: My book on Amazon
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